He suffers from Extreme guilt

Aaron Roshy
4 min readMay 13, 2021

Have you ever come across someone guilty just because of an unusual or dark idea which popped into his head ? You know him, you know that He will not implement the idea or act on it . But this guy is guilty about it to a level that he might want to confess about that dark thought to everyone he knows. he is burdened by it; he wants to get punishment for what he thought . this is what a person suffering from extreme guilt looks like . Extreme guilt is a symptom of clinical depression but we don’t know that and when we encounter someone like that, we might think why is he playing too much self righteous ? why cannot he stop this drama ? what is the deal with this guy ? Now to dissect it a bit Guilt is something which comes into existence when you do something against your beliefs , ideas or principles of right and wrong . Basically when you do something wrong ‘ta-da’ guilt enters the room . now guilt is like a voice which unlike conscience talks to you only after you have done the deed . Which is why its fine if you did something wrong and you feel guilty that’s actually a sign of being a sane person . But what if you cannot let go of the guilt ?what if you keep thinking of different scenarios where you made mistake or could have made a mistake ? what if your work , your mind , your relationships or your life is suffering because of that guilt. Now someone might say that you just need to move on or stop thinking about it ; But a person suffering from extreme guilt cannot just move on or cannot stop thinking about it . let me tell you what exactly is happening in that mind . this person believes that he is is a bad person . He wants peace and for him peace comes out of only a clean slate of conscience . He has ideas which he does not want to have . Some of them are disturbing . Slowly and slowly the ideas start becoming his reality he starts believing that he might have actually done some of the disturbing acts which he thought of . He knows that he has not done any of it but he also thinks that maybe he has . Now think about it he is in a dilemma of not being able to confirm his reality . when he talks to his girlfriend, he can’t stop talking about this problem he is going through. he is not able to focus on his work . He cannot sleep . but one day all these thoughts suddenly fade away . his desire to be happy comes back . he tries again and finally comes out of it . But by the end of the day he has another scene of his life in his mind and guess what , this time he is thinking of something he has actually done . A mistake he did when he was really young . for a man of his age it might be a stupid mistake but he cannot let go of it and the cycle starts again . Now think of this cycle going on for years . He is tired of it now . Definitely he should seek help cause this does sound like a mental health issue and he did take help ,got himself some medicines turned out he had some depressive illness . But his problem won’t leave him , his overthinking of past and his worry for future affected by the mistakes won’t leave him he now thinks of dying everyday . If someone is reading this what i want to tell you is that a person like this is in a lot of pain he might not ever look like but he is . His anxiety is not allowing him to work or think anything for his benefit he just wants to live with a peaceful mind but that he cannot . People like this will might look hopeless and people living with them might be afraid of him failing cause again he does not do anything. He is lazy . yes no benefits out of this guy But if you actually want to help such a person . The biggest help you can do is to be patient and please be sympathetic and empathetic . There’s no harm in being understanding to people . or you can believe that nope he is just lazy he has to fight on his own for his problems then go ahead cause he is already fighting it .

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Aaron Roshy
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